Certainty

I'm supposed to go in for an ultrasound today, but I don't want to. I know that I'm losing this baby. The blood is coming more regularly now, like a light period. I am waiting for a dramatic "There's so much blood!" moment where I know it's "over," but that might not be for a couple of weeks. I'm not going to worry about how that pans out with Haiti. This is reality, and I'm not going to change a bunch of plans to wait for something. I feel fine now, and life is going to go on.